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Hello Lovelies,

So this is it. The week is finally here. I will get my period any minute now and then, dun dun dun, start stimulation! For those of you that don’t speak IVF yet that means this is the week I start giving myself the shots. Active treatment cycle! AHHHH This is CRAZY!

I truly felt like it would never come. The beginning of this last month off really seemed to crawl by and then… All of a sudden, it was over. I cannot believe we are starting IVF. This post is about my utter disbelief over the crazy things we are willing to do for a baby. Things I would never have dreamed were possible. Things that make my thoughts swim, even now, staring down the barrel of it all.

I never would have believed I would…

1. Undergo IVF. Until very recently this was not even on my list of things to consider, yet here we are. Paying 15,000 dollars for a shot at parenthood seemed crazy, it still seems crazy… But I signed up to do it anyway.

2. Stab myself with 3 needles a day. For two weeks. Straight. I hate needles. It’s almost a phobia. No one likes them but I truly fear them. But I am gonna do it. On a time limit. Every day. Come hell or high water… Moving on.

3. Allow science to dictate my movements. No sex at certain times? Sure. No dinners out unless you want to stab yourself in the washroom? Sure. No fixed work schedule in case we need you at the clinic pronto? Sure. No heavy lifting, and by heavy they mean <10 lbs? Sure. No twisting or running in case you flip an ovary? Sure. No meds for allergies or headaches? Sure. Basically, whatever you say Dr … SURE!

4. Reach a point where this is basically our only way to conceive a child. If you had told me this, even a year ago I would not have believed you. Not in a million years. I probably would have even bet against you on this one. But I was wrong. Well, crazier things have happened.

But here we are! IVF. NOW. This week! Dear God, Goddess, Allah, Yahweh, Buddah… EVERYONE… Please give me strength. It is like we used to say on the playground, and what I hope to say with my future offspring… Ready or not, here we come!

XOXXO,
Unpregnat Chicken

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40 thoughts on “Micro Post: The Crazy Things I Never Thought I’d Do

  • March 9, 2015 at 6:38 am
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    You can do this! I was where you are in the spring of 2013 before my 1st IVF, and I shook and cried after the first few needles. But soon I became an EXPERT at stabbing myself in the belly in restaurant toilets and I’m now 7 weeks pregnant. I’m still having to inject needles every day, but now it’s not even a big deal. You will become SO BAD-ASS. 🙂

    Good luck! Here’s to a BFP and a healthy pregnancy.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 6:41 am
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      Margaret,
      Thanks! Yeah I am feeling optimistically terrified. Which I think is an appropriate mix of emotions for right now. Fingers crossed I get soooo many good embryos and at least one healthy baby out of this!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 6:56 am
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    Wishing you so much luck as you get closer to IVF. It really is crazy to think of how just a little over a year and a half ago, we too were that bright eyed couple who thought sex twice a week would be all we need to get a baby. I guess the positive side is we have all learned so much about reproduction and now really really really realize a baby is a true miracle.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 7:08 am
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      Nicole,
      Thanks, hun. Truth. I have a definite different outlook from the last 2 years 9 months. None of my friends will have wanted their babies as much as I will have wanted mine. For Real!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:27 am
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      Anamika,
      Thank you so much! So far feeling upbeat. Hopefully, that continues through the needles.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:29 am
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      Laura,
      Thanks, girl, I appreciate it!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 9:05 am
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    Sending lots of positive thoughts your way! Thank you so much for sharing your journey!

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:30 am
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      Carrie,
      I’ll take all the good thoughts I can get! Thank you for following along!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 10:40 am
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    You will do great through all of this! I honestly dreaded the needles & then found they were not as scary or painful as the nurses described them to be/as I had imagined in my head. It just becomes part of the routine for a few weeks. Good luck!!

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:43 am
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      McKenzie,
      Thanks. I sincerely hope you are right!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 11:01 am
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    Yep. Been here, had the same thoughts. But here’s the thing: after all of this you will be able to do things most people squirm at. When others complain about needles, I’m now in a position of “just stick me and get it over with it,” which surprises many. Or when the fret about some uncertainty, I remind myself that one can always find a way (even if it seems impossible) to resolution.

    Hoping for you. Hoping this cycle leads to much joy and celebration very soon.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 11:23 am
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      Cristy,
      I am also hoping for that. Haha.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 2:22 pm
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    I hope it goes well. I have to give myself injections every day for MS. It is a big deal to get your head around in the beginning, but now it feels like a normal part of my routine. I hope they go ok for you. Above all, I so hope that this will be what it takes for you guys.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 2:24 pm
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      Rachel,
      Also I think having to master the injections makes us some kind of bad-ass super hero! HIIIIYA! So that helps.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 3:10 pm
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    Sending you god thoughts. IVF is pretty intimidating, but you are right you can do it. Take it one day at a time and (This is very important) plan for ways to reduce stress.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 3:21 pm
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      Turtle,
      Thanks! Yes I’m planning lots of coffee dates and fun things to do to take my mind off it.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 7:09 pm
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    Wishing you all the positive energy your little body can handle. You are a bad ass and those shots will be nothing for you after the first couple. We love you and are so excited for you! (((((HUGS))))))

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:29 pm
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      Tracy,
      Have your support means so much to me. Thank you for being an awesome Mother-in-law. I’m excited for us too!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:30 pm
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      Molly,
      Me too! Please let it be sooner rather than later.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 7:21 pm
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    Sending 3000 good thoughts for this cycle! We’re cheering you on.

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:30 pm
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      Mel,
      Golly that’s a large number! Thank you!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 9, 2015 at 7:30 pm
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    Oh, good luck to you! It is crazy when you think on where you thought you’d be and where you are, but this is such a time of possibilities. I was always anxious until I started a cycle, and then it would be so much excitement overwhelming the thoughts of, “so THIS crazy process is how babies are made?” I wish you smooth sailing, and anxiety-free injecting. Quick tip–if you’re taking anything that requires mixing with a powder, let it rest for a few minutes on a sterilized counter before injecting. It will sting WAY less. Thinking such excited, positive thoughts for you!

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    • March 9, 2015 at 10:32 pm
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      Jess,
      I do have one that I have to mix! Thank you for the tip, the stinging is what I am most concerned for. I am pretty anxious to get things started and hoping for only excitement after that.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 11, 2015 at 5:36 am
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    OH yay its starting– GOOD LUCK and sending you positive thoughts and energy! XOXOXO
    You always have us to talk to if it gets stressful!

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    • March 11, 2015 at 4:45 pm
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      Iris,
      It is! Friday will be the big day for stims!
      XOXXO,Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 11, 2015 at 2:56 pm
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    Yippeeee! Excited and hopeful for you. Not only are you on your way to overcoming infertility, but also your phobia of needles. You got this, twinzee! My thoughts and prayers are with you today and throughout this journey.

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    • March 11, 2015 at 4:45 pm
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      Renuka,
      Thanks! I felt much better after the nurse showed me how to do them.. although there are an awful lot of them :s lol.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 11, 2015 at 9:23 pm
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    Sending the best wishes your way! God bless! 🙂

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    • March 12, 2015 at 6:34 am
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      Aish,
      Thank you!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 11, 2015 at 11:55 pm
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    Just take it easy, one day at a time. You can do this. The first shot will be the hardest but it gets easier, I promise. Don’t forget to breathe.

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    • March 12, 2015 at 6:35 am
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      Deathstar,
      Yes, I hear breathing is so important! Oxygen and all… Thanks for the reminder 🙂
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 12, 2015 at 6:57 am
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    As someone who is waiting to have reconstructive surgery to fix a cervix so we might be able to kids, I totally understand. good luck!

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    • March 12, 2015 at 7:00 am
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      Tracey,
      Woah! I’ve never heard of that before. Science is so cool! I hope it works for you.
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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  • March 22, 2015 at 3:55 am
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    I know you’re already deeeeep in it 😉 but I wanted to wish you all the best!! I’m sure you’re a PRO by now 😉
    Sending very good thoughts and positive vibes!!

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    • March 23, 2015 at 7:13 am
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      Sunflower,
      Thanks! Yeah it was way easier than I thought. I wouldn’t say I LIKE the shots now.. but it’s not bad!
      XOXXO, Unpregnant Chicken

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