I apologize, but today’s post is going to be brief. We finished our first round of IUI and I diligently went in for blood work yesterday. Well results are in. And no, they aren’t what I was hoping for. Negative. Again. Even though treatment was substantially ramped up this time. Even though hubby’s numbers were great. Even though I felt myself ovulate the same day as IUI. Even though I was on Clomid and progesterone and had NO spotting…
I lay in bed and cried for an hour after the phone call. Resulting in a massive migraine that I will probably have for the remainder of the day. Aside from giving myself a massive headache that Advil can’t touch, I also cried out all of my feelings. Which means I’m in the weird hinterlands of not happy or sad… barely alive is the closest feeling to it. I lay here like a slug and can’t eat or sleep or cry, I just plain can’t today guys. I was going to post a really long awesome post today… and I just don’t have it in me. I apologize. Today is a bad day. Check back in Monday when we will return to your regularly scheduled programming.
P.S. I chose to post this as I felt guilty for not contributing to the blog today on a scheduled day and I wanted you to understand. Also, even when it’s hard, I vowed to be open and honest. So, here I am. Broken and damaged and hurting.