*It’s been a bit since I posted about myself and this pregnancy and figured it was time to do that. Well, it was time and I really had nothing else to share this week and it’s not fair to all you loyal readers to have two weeks of no new blog content… so, trigger warning… here we go!*
Right now, outside my window there are light, white flakes drifting to the ground.
It’s November 2nd and the first snow of the season.
Shit is getting real. Like, really real.
My babe is due mid December and the appearance of snow makes me acutely aware of just how close that date is getting. I’m now 34 weeks pregnant. Can you even fucking believe it?! I can’t. Or at least I go back and forth between disbelief and forced belief because of all the shit I still have to do! The end of pregnancy is a very busy time y’all: Prepping for and starting mat leave, working out a transitional stage for the blog, prepping dog for impending small human, finishing the nursery, packing hospital bag, reading books that will hopefully make me able to get through labour… The list goes on! And then there is just life. The day-to-day goes so fast, and often times exhausts me so much, that important things get bumped to the back burner to be dealt with “tomorrow”. And before you know it a few weeks slip by and STILL there is a huge list.
Time, it marches on.
Technically, we have around 6 weeks left in this part of the journey. But, due dates being what they are, this could look more like 4 or even 8. So you mosey along, with everything feeling far too fluid, and just hope that when the big day comes shit is as ready as it needs to be. We do have a car seat, a bassinet, mini diapers, and mini clothing. So I think technically we are as ready as anyone gets. But I’m not going to want to be hanging pictures or figuring out where the hell my dog is staying when my water breaks so I’m gonna keep plugging along in hopes that more of these things get checked off my list before the big day. Also it keeps me focused… On the end game, on getting the baby. Focused but not freaking out.
If you can’t tell, I’m firmly in the nesting mode of pregnancy. I nice tongue in cheek time for this little chicken. While I eagerly await my baby’s arrival I’m organizing things and setting things right. I’m also getting ready to tidy up the blog space, as this blog also needs to be prepared for the onslaught of motherhood. I’ll be re-configuring going forward. I will keep this space for infertility information and support resources, and add a new blog section about parenting after infertility (so if you are wanting to continue following my journey as it unfolds you’ll be able to but will have to click to a separate link), as well as a few exciting extras that you’ll have to wait to see! It’s gonna be great! It’s also going to take time to get set up, but hopefully by the time baby arrives it will be basically ready to go!
I’m very excited to be continuing this page! I’ve been surprised by how important staying a part of this community has become to me. When we were diagnosed with infertility I desperately tried not to hear that word, I couldn’t wait to “get my baby and prove them wrong.” Yet, here we are. Baby is imminent and I want to stay. This diagnosis has changed me and my world and I find that I DON’T want to go back and forget. I know it will be dulled. That is almost inevitable. But I remember, and want to help others. I remember, and want to further advocate for this condition that is so under-acknowledged.
I think I have found the way to do that.
I hope the transition to motherhood goes well and that you like the improved page when it launches.
Fingers crossed, y’all.