Oh. My. God, Lovelies.
I don’t post on Tuesday’s but fuck that rule because—> HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THIS BLOG! Go me, go you, go US!!!
*confetti confetti confetti*
That’s amazing! And crazy… What a difference a year makes. I’m looking back at my posts and although I started uploading my posts on August 29th last year I didn’t hit publish and go live until today, it turns out… Or at least that’s what my WordPress is telling me. And with the way my memory has been lately I choose to trust WordPress lol.
I vividly remember last summer when I started kicking around the idea of this blog. I wasn’t sure what running a blog would involve and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to be so very exposed and public about our struggles… so, as a kind of stop gap, I started writing posts just for me on my computer. I addressed them to “Lovelies”, although I toyed with calling you all “readers”, and treated it like a sarcastic journal. Eventually, I developed quite the cache of these entries and decided to bite the bullet. I bought this domain and started building the site. At that point I was scared shitless but also determined to share what we’d been going through for the past 2 years ( at that point). So at the end of August 2014 I pre-loaded a few posts and toyed with the idea of going live. I was terrified that people wouldn’t like my writing, or that no one would “get it”. I pre-loaded posts because, frankly, I was also terrified that if you stumbled across a site with only one post attached to it you would never stop by again!
I was desperate and NEEDED you guys.
I started with 5 pre-loaded posts and then went live. One of my first posts was about the Two Week Wait! HA. I’m reading it back now and, even after moving through all of the treatments available to an infertile couple, I still identify with that post. The two week wait is always a balls to the wall terrifying time. Always. No matter what kind of cycle you are on. I also did a post about abbreviations which seriously shows how early I was in the journey. I should really update that peice to reflect the truly terrifying number of abbreviations that are used on forums and in blogs. At that point in trying it probably hadn’t occurred to me to look into IUI abbreviations, IVF abbreviations and CERTAINLY not clinical abbreviations about hormones and infertility disorders!
My how things have changed.
This year, as I write this post, I am in correspondence with universities to plan my second circuit of infertility lectures. Where I talk about all kinds of nitty, gritty, infertility shit that my earlier self could not even have imagined, let alone discussed with honesty. Crazy abbreviations? I got that. All the infertility treatments? Yep, got that too. All the emotional baggage that arises from residing in infertile crazytown? Check, check, double-fucking check!
IVF- start here and keep clicking forward, I wrote down the whole cycle-
And now here I stand… Pregnant.
I truly couldn’t have imagined all of this. Not when we first thought of trying in gorgeous Scotland. Not when I first went to my Infertility Dr. Not when I started this blog. Yet, here we are. I’m glad to be here with you, one year later. Solidarity, bitches!
Baby-dust confetti your way!